I know he feels hurt, and the wind feels knocked out of me. And, although we knew this was a strong possibility I never actually believed it would transpire, almost literally, overnight.
It's true what they say, "The Entity giveth and the Entity taketh away." Actually, they don't say that - I do. They are lavished with unbelievable, dreamy benefits, money and fancy office buildings decorated in the latest modern art. Free Starbucks coffee, and Coke and all the chocolate milk you can drink! And all the while, sweating, racing hearts and thoughts and the pressure to create "more money, make the stock price go up!" coupled with sleepless nights, weeks and weeks of travel away from loving families, sometimes in distant lands where time is a different day altogether from those they left. Twelve hour work days, sometimes not coming home until 3am to make a deadline. I can't help wondering what the hell we are going to do. What? 10 years and that's it? Told on Wednesday and last day is Friday? What the fuck? He was just given his gaudy, crystal "award" for 10 years with a, ahem, very large software company a few months ago. He left that behind. We could have used it as a door stop.
While all these horrifying, scary thoughts go through my mind (you know, the usual: bread lines, living in a refrigerator box, etc) - I can't help but feel relief for my husband. I let our a long sigh for him because I know what's it like to work for a company and feel like the gerbil wheel is just going. It's the same office, the same coffee, the same meetings, the same bitching about this not doing this correctly. It gets old, stale, moldy and tasteless.
I want him to breathe. I want him to take some time and try to figure out what he really wants to do with his life. Something other than try to make someone's stock price go up.
Life changes quickly and I truly feel things happen for a reason. My husband was not meant to stay at that place because he deserves better than that. He deserves to feel, at the very least, valued at the end of the day and a true sense of accomplishment. Hopefully this leads to something better for him and I don't mean monetarily.
4 comments:
I'm so sorry, what a horrible situation to be in. Hopefully you can both move past this quickly and find something that will make good sense for your family. Hang in there!
I love that post - and yes, it totally sucks & is scary, but sometimes that's all you need to make a change. Like you said, a change for the better! And I'll insert my plug here about the joys of working for yourself.
Good luck!
xoxo
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Thanks gals! We'll survive...along with all the other unfortunate people belonging to the unemployed-set. :-)
that really sucks, marisa!
that's pretty much what happened with keith's company, but rather than laying anyone off, they kept reducing pay. it's really awesome when your husband, who has 2 master's degrees, makes an amount that qualifies his family of 5 for WIC.
at the time the situation was not at all ideal for our family. i wanted to continue to stay home--keith didn't really want to have to be home with the kids, but here we are 2 months into our new life and it's really good. keith LOVES being home with alanna and ryland and he's MUCH happier. he's not as bored with his life because he gets to enjoy variety with the kids.
hang in there. something awesome will come about!!
thanks for posting!
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